Missing her

Im already 53 yrs of age!Last 2018 I lost my daugther,she is 22 years old only!her Birthday is on feb 29,but theres no 29 in the calendar this year!So we will celebrate it on Feb 28...She died on a car accident,Its so very very painful for me,to lost a Daughter?Because,I want to be the first who will buried not her!She Graduated as a Cum Laude,And She is a Christian,When She died?I ask our almigthy,so many questions "why" but I realize it all happen,because it has a reason?But its so painful!They say theres a plan?The Lord has a plan but,whatever the plan,its better that She is with us!It is more happier if She is with us!But right now I accepted it already and I ask Lord to forgive me..Because I question him about my Daughther loss!But it will never happen again the happiness that we feel everytime there is an occasions on our family!We smile,and laugh but at the end of the time We remember her,in our family we all hide the natural feeling,because when we see one crying were all cry also!But I know where is She right now,with her good heart?I know that She is in our Lord Jesus! Singing and Praising with him!I Love my daugther very much!The other part of my heart is broken!but I have 4 daugther,and 5 grandchildren right now!